As I told you Friday, I was anxiously awaiting news about moving on to Round 2 of the 2014 search for new members of the Disney Moms Panel. We were told to expect emails beginning around the same time the afternoon parade in the Magic Kingdom kicked off on Friday. Since Friday was going to be a busy day for me, I didn't know when I'd be able to actually get to see if the news was good or not. Honestly, I didn't know if I wanted to know or not either....I *really* wanted it this year. After working a few hours in the morning, hubby and I went to Walmart to put some things on layaway (more on that another day - this is my first time trying the layaway process....) then headed to school to volunteer in the boy's classrooms. Pretty much the entire world knew I'd applied again this year and that I was really, really, really hoping to move to the next round and ideally become a member of the panel. When we got to school several people asked me if I'd gotten the news yet. I explained that I hadn't but would hopefully know later in the evening since we had family pictures shortly after school got out that night. Since my little bug's class was at their "special" (computer, music, art, PE and science are classes that they rotate through), I grabbed my phone quickly and checked my email. My hesitation in checking at the school or right after were that I would either scream like a crazy person if I made it or crazy like a baby if I didn't. Thankfully a girlfriend was also volunteering in class with me so if I had either reaction, she'd understand. 3:00 on the nose I picked up my phone and opened my email......but there was nothing new. For a moment I thought that must be a good thing right? There was still hope. I refreshed my email screen and immediately an email from the Disney Parks Moms Panel popped in. Before I opened it, I said one last prayer and just stared at it for a second, finally opening it. Here's what I got:
I posted to Twitter that I'd gotten the "thanks but no thanks" email then texted my hubby to tell him. Over the next few minutes, I kept my eye on the #DisneyMP hashtag to see if anyone else had gotten a similar email or the email I had hoped to open. Several friends got this email:
While we were waiting for the kids to come back, I spent time congratulating others who were lucky enough to move on and send well wishes to those who were in my boat as well. After school we had to drop another boy off then come home to get ready for our family pictures. Friday was also the night I'd promised Carter that I would take him to dinner for being such a good helper and making good choices so we dropped the rest of the crew off and headed to Cracker Barrel.
Once I was finally home for the night, things started to hit me. I can't really put it all into words - I was (and still am) beyond thrilled for those I know moving to the next round because I know they wanted it just as much as I did and will be an amazing fit when they're selected. On the other hand, it was like going through a bad break up - I loved Mickey and all his friends, spent countless hours with him, encouraged other people to vacation there, helped numerous people plan their trips and have raised three kids to love Disney almost as much as their mommy does. Disney was truly my "happy place" where I can go and forget about the drama from "real life" and here it was handing me the rejection that I went there to avoid. For a while I seriously thought about spending less time at the parks during our Thanksgiving trip - why should I go spend money and learn more about the parks if they don't want to use my knowledge? A good friend joking suggested I boycott Disney and I was honestly thinking about it! That's when another friend's words came to mind - that this process is proof Disney isn't perfect. He was so right, even though I thought I'd done everything "right" this year by having a ton of visits (and even some on property linked to my Disney account that I used to apply for the panel), having our annual passes, chatting more on Twitter, Facebook, my blog and contributing to three other Disney blogs, attending a VIP event the weekend of the New Fantasyland and Test Track relaunch, Disney still wasn't perfect. They really missed one of the best Moms Panel members for 2014 they could have had. Saturday I spent the day in a funk because I told myself I could have one day to be upset then I needed to move on. Sunday I was still hurt but I'm starting to heal. I'll never know what they're looking for until they finally pick me one day (and even then I'm not sure that I'll know!). Like I told the others on Twitter, even though I didn't get a FastPass this year, I'm still in line and I'll make it to the front eventually!
Congratulations again to everyone moving on the second round! I'll be chEARing you on from here, sharing my knowledge, tips and tricks right here in my own happy place. Until next year...